Hetero to Gay Conversion and Back
Psychological Association admits:
“Sexual orientation has not been
conclusively found to be determined by any particular factor or factors, and the
timing of the emergence, recognition, and expression of one’s sexual orientation
varies among individuals.” Here is
another confession from the same source: “Sometimes straight people discover
they are attracted to their own gender, sometimes gay people discover they like
some of the opposite gender, and sometimes bisexuals realize they strongly
prefer one gender or the other.”
Last 50 years a lot of researchers
was trying to convert gays into heterosexuals having hundreds scientific or
“spiritual” experiments. But no one, I repeat,
no one has ever tried on scientific
experimentation converting straight people to gay or bisexual. Too bad
because turning straight person into bisexual is relatively easy, whereas making
hetero man from gay is extremely difficult. Let's
look at why.
First, the background.
In the 60s attempts of gay conversion to heterosexual were common in psychology.
Poor gays shoved in ice baths, hit by electricity, clamped on a diet, this is a
lot of literature about it. In the 70s,
the science opened the hormones and immediately started claiming, it's all about
them and pricked human gays with horse doses of testosterone – the conversion
have not achieved. After that, somewhere in the 80s, progressive doctors started
to speak about fetal abnormalities in development, and since neither really
confirm or deny it is impossible, our society established a political compromise
– the prosecution of gays stopped on the grounds that their “abnormalities " are
natural, due to the simple fact that all attempts to treat them scientifically
failed. Moreover, statistics collection on gays has found no hormonal or genetic
"Naturalness" of gays as a scientific opinion, is extremely
important for the present state of western society, because it protects the
developing bisexual moral code and saves gays from persecution and public
condemnation. Despite there is no firm evidence for such conclusion, just the
opposite. But as long as the myth plays important role in modern political life,
the legend is tenacious and strong, even in gay community. Even the fact that
nobody tried to convert hetero human to gay, tells us that dominating opinion
about hetero orientation as a normality and gayness as a sickness, is still
prevailing, while the reality is ironic and complete opposite –
bisexuality is human genetic normality.
So, why the conversion is so hard?
When any doctor is trying to treat patient from any illness, he/she should know
medical normality to determinate the sickness and treat the disease. But what if
the doctor is sick himself? When
religious healer attempts to “cure” homosexual it looks like left limping man
teaching right limping person how to break a leg.
In contemporary North
America, there are dozens of religious schools for "treatment" of sex
orientation. Howling and luring, pastors encourage the love of Christ to treat
wayward sodomites and lesbians. It would seem like a drivel, but we should not
jump to conclusions.
The fact that these schools
honestly publish the results - is that 5% of the children of Christ are really
"cured", get married and have children with the opposite sex. Moreover, they
write blogs on the Internet - mostly religious texts. Interestingly, the same 5%
is the usual result of missionary activity in a developed society - only five of
the 100 are susceptible for religious propaganda. It turns out that if a person
believes in Christ in earnest, he/she just changes the sex orientation - an
issue that not everyone can believe in Christ that deeply. But for us it’s
important to note, that if it’s impossible to convert a gay man into a straight,
simply no 5% would exist at all.
About 90% of all women serving
sentences in jail, all over the world, gain experience of lesbian relations.
Around 30% of them, after release, keep up the good work. Fans of gay’s
"Naturalness" quietly turn a blind eye - a political compromise is more
important. After all, if homosexuality is contagious, then it must be fought.
And homosexuality is really contagious as any progressive idea, and is spread
the same way - as an idea, identification. One can grasp the ideological pattern
easily, but to forget the same at will is much more difficult, especially
And here we encounter the
problem of what is considered normal, especially moral normality. I will support
the Darwinists, saying that any relationships are meaningless unless they are
used for the needs of the reproductive cycle. That is, the rest of the
population dies out, sooner or later. It’s very hard to argue this point, but…
But the problem is that
monogamy, which is our major family form, is dying. In 2001, for the first time
in human history, the number of unmarried exceeded married, in developed
countries. We are clearly entering a different standard of gender and family
structure without anyone knows what kind of standard it is. The new form of
marriage is so unusual that one will have to get used to it for a long time -
both gay and straight. The fact is that the new family is based on bisexuality -
heterosexual or gay for this purpose does not fit, but the current generation of
gay people performs important role of preparing the public to accept mass
Put simply, those countries
that are unable to accept homosexuality as a new normality, doomed to
extinction. It would seem why homosexuality is necessary for reproduction? As it
turns out – it is vital. The fact that all social relations in the higher apes
use homosexuality to strengthen relations in the herd - in common chimpanzees
this way hierarchy is constructed, in Bonobo apes the inverted hierarchy of
domain (matriarchy) built on the same homosexual connections.
The destruction of monogamy is inevitable - wife
will not support the unequal relations in the family in the absence of hunger
and violence, while equal relations between genders are utopian, just like
communism. The new family is built on the principles of Bonobo, and
respectively, we have to raise children
to be bisexual, as strange as it may seem to homophobes.
Matriarchy, as a stable
family structure, requires a finely tuned set of conditions for a successful
operation, and one of these conditions is the lack of competition between males.
Such gender exclusion from the competition is not new - in a strictly
hierarchical structures competition between females is vanishingly small. You
can take any society where property inheritance is absent and find out what
women have nothing to compete for, because their rights are about zero -
criminal environment, barbarian tribes.
"Gay" as an
identifier, it’s a role that was born only in the 20th century, although
homosexuality is as old as mankind, and only needs to combat heteronormativity.
Only in the 20th century one began to call homosexuals “gay”, only in the 20th
century, they began to fight for their rights, and they will disappear as
identity only within the victory - when the division and oppression based on
sexual orientation disappears.
From the point of view of the
moral matrices theory the conversion of straight to gay and back, is a matter of
ideology change and to develop a new reflex platform to address a flow of the
sex instinct. "Reflex platform" is what excites you. I recall the basic thesis
that sexual orientation has a reflex
origin, and can be instilled just as saliva of Pavlov's dogs, depending on moral
matrix of society. Let’s talk about it a bit.
I love Japanese udon
soup with octopus and shrimp, which my friends look extremely suspicious - do
not stir a tentacle. But any sane person would say that the taste is the result
of habit and established way of life. And it is absolutely right.
Can I forget how delicious Japanese eat soup? No, I cannot. And
when you think about a particular dish, you salivate excessively, since the
image and taste of a favorite food has already been introduced in the form of
reflection - thinking is not necessary, it is checked. Grandmother's ravioli is
delicious. Once the image of ravioli flashed in my head - the stomach
This is your taste orientation - dumpling.
But if you get pickled toad for the breakfast, you would probably
scratch your head before putting it in your mouth. The stomach will be silent.
The fact is that the toad, as the food, is unknown to you, and you do not know
how to eat it. Moreover, without the knowledge and traditions HOW TO EAT toad
your experimentation likely will end in failure, although the French guzzle it
with pleasure. And yet, without a strong hunger to force myself to eat toads
very hard, I checked myself. The body maintains a strict conservatism in food
preferences - if a certain set of products is enough questionable foods are
Quite clearly that the human neural network in our brain optimizes the
functionality of any mental process, memorizing sequences of required reactions,
physical or mental, thus quickening the process and making it less expensive in
terms of resources. This optimized reaction in psychology called the conditioned
reflex. This function is used to optimize our function everywhere - sports,
balance and driving, language and translation, writing, reading ... In fact,
this function is the basis of our higher intelligence compared to other
terrestrial animals. But nothing comes for free.
Such technological luxury, as the optimization of the logical
process requires not only a large brain, but also a dynamic way of organizing
memory with data indexing. Many of what other animals pass in the genetic code
as predefined behaviour by inheritance, humanity carries into the social customs
and culture, because it changes all the time. But as kids, we can learn a
civilization from scratch - not the best way, but nothing else invented so far.
Civilization sets in us thousands of reflexes, opinions, logical chains, called
background of such apparent universality of the human brain, quite clear, that
sexual orientation is a dynamically loadable behavior, defined in culture, but
not in the body of the child. Since the targets of this orientation and shapes
are constantly changing. And it does not mean that it's easy to change at will.
Indeed, if sexual orientation is “hard to change” reflex, it is
worth considering what other reflexes are not subject of change by human will,
as it downloads itself directly from the
society. Not far to seek – reflex of beauty.
I hope that no one will argue that beauty is fully defined in the
culture, that is, in the dynamic part of the human “operating system”. Different
ages and different civilizations set their standards of beauty, and no one
standard, not even the youth, was stable for all human cultures.
Do you know what is beautiful and what is not? Of course yes. Do
you know how do you know? Hell, no.
Since the load of beauty is performed by unconscious copying, its
control is not delegated to the conscious level of the individual. The same
thing happens with sex orientation and gender definition.
The matrix does not trust people in
matters of beauty, sex and sexual orientation, and controls these processes
Therefore carriers of beauty are much more social - they have to
copy the latest versions of prettiness definition.
Is there are any other reflexes, set against our will or desire?
Yes, it's the whole group of prohibitive barriers. Parents forbade us walk
outside naked and we have strong internal problems when being exposed in the
public expecting punishment. Breaking this reflex puts us into a state of
stress, increases blood pressure causing face blushing.
Such prohibitive barrier might be called
a moral barrier, as overcoming the barrier puts the human into excessive stress
without reasonable cause. For example, the simple realization that the action is
illegal automatically stops most people from its performance, while the minority
that still carries a wrongful act is under stress disobeying moral barrier. Note
that the cold-blooded criminal, looting and killing without remorse, is under
the control of another moral matrix in which the loot is just a job. Moral
barrier in this criminal matrix can be disrupted if the thief will do something
which is beyond one's dignity, like being caught while stealing from his own -
the moral code of thieves is followed very strictly.
In addition to moral barriers
restraining reflex can just ruin your appetite. My
wife found a hair in dumpling around 10 years ago and since then never eats
And herself, at will, she can’t abolish this reflex.
I interviewed, Jean, 24 years old, from
the city of St. Catharines, Ontario. At age 21, this guy has a very lovely
girlfriend, then one day she got drunk and started to show interest in others
guys in the bar. Jean, like any monogamist, got jealous causing a drunken brawl
in a bar where he got beaten; his girlfriend told him that he is gay and his
penis small, after all. Funny story, isn’t it?
The guy went through depression, engaged himself in
taekwondo and decided to become gay counting his penis as not long enough. Men didn’t attract him
sexually, so he found an idea to start with couples, mostly those where the man
wants to have a "sandwich." And what happened? By the time of our conversation,
he already had some successful contacts with his gender.
Fantastic, but person just wanted to
become gay and did what he wanted.
Another one of my good friends, after a failure with white woman, began to date exclusively Asians, as his failures
were associated with the image of a white girl. He married Chinese woman after
So, as one can
see, all our sexual targets are shifting, changing, and replacing colors,
smells, sounds. And amazingly enough they have inner rule of development -
installation of sexual target goes only though passive channel, but tangible
result (awareness) appears on the active.
Therefore, trying to imagine the possible
target in sexual perspective won’t work in many cases, if the target is not on
active channel. This is typically
happen to hetero/gay(mono-sexual) person which tries to imagine sexual scenes
with unattractive gender – for example, when I was homophobic I couldn’t imagine
men as sexual target.
In fact gay/straight
division is fundamentally wrong; any
mono-sexuality is limitation of natural dual sexual connectivity which is
required for modern matriarchic society.
But for the general understanding let me describe how certain moral types
can be converted to each other.
To organize us in different
type of groups our nature uses behavioural patterns shaping sexual tradition.
The patterns are violence [hierarchy], prohibition [exclusivity] and free sexual
To put an end to the endless disputes about improvable claim that "gays are a
mistake of natural constitution", I offer to serious researchers real and not
speculative evidence. This evidence is repeatable experiment, which is used in
many sciences to prove a point. The experiment is how to open human passive
sexual channel in heterosexual men – shortly speaking, how to become gay.
Like any researcher, I had this
experience with myself, being 47 years old, happily married heterosexual man
with children. Any gay fantasies or experience were completely absent and all
pro-gay conclusions in the book obtained exclusively using logic. More than
that, up to 2005-2006, I was homophobic, with distinct negative bias and
contempt against gay people.
As a result of the following exercises, I succeeded to open my
own passive channel and could realize sexual attraction woman’s way (or gay
way). The process has taken 6 month as the methodology being developed on the
In the final result, I made a specific awareness of sexual affection to a man,
and a passive sympathy. A man who sees a beautiful woman [beauty is defined in
the matrix], excites immediately having a reward for realizing particular
target. The passive channel is not working this way, especially undeveloped.
Seeing a nice man, I felt that I wanted him to pay attention to me, that's all.
The feeling is new and easily recognizable, so anybody who is trying would
understand it momentarily.
This initial reaction to
opening passive channel is identical to the reaction of shy young girl who
pleased that somebody paying attention to her without having sexual images of
men in her imagination – very often “innocent” girl is not capable of being
sexually aroused by visual stimulus due simple lack of experience. The same
happens to heterosexual man who is trying to imagine his own gender as sexual
target. Representation of sexual targets in mind is depending on already tested
or well inspired images, and if the image is not metabolized by brain, then the
picture will fail to support the arousal.
For example, my experience with
women has always been limited to the white race, and Black women were seen to me
just as a gay man perception of women - beautiful pictures, which do not wake up
my desire. So it was up until at work, I have not come across black woman who
actively flirted within permissible boundaries - that is included in the
half-joking sexual protocol adopted today in the western civilization. And
despite the fact that in the beginning it I didn’t like it much, but two months
later, I just got used to it. At first I was just polite answering her
flirtation jokes, but then I noticed that I was pleased by fact of flirting. The
next step was the appearance of beautiful blacks in my mind, although I simply
never had - the image has been learned and has appeared on the active channel.
Because she proved to me that she supports the same sex record as I do, my
subconscious has included her attributes in the list of targets for copulation.
Not very romantic, is it?
That is, if in the result of
specified below experiment, you will want someone of your own gender – the test
can be considered complete. If you continue, then after a while, this gender
will appear in your imagination in the form of passive and active fantasies. The
more, the channel will be more open - you will feel sexual attraction to your
own gender in everyday life.
Thus, in order to convert a gay person to straight and back, one
needs to realize that there are no gay and straight per se. A division between
"gay" and “straight” has been imposed by traditional culture for the separation
of right and wrong behavior – and in terms of monogamy, it's absolutely true.
Remembering that any person has his own dominative matrix, let’s see how
hierarchical gay is different from matriarchic.
Because “gay” or “straight” are just
learnable patterns there are millions ways how to study them but there is
always people who can’t swim or ride the bike- and nothing is wrong about it.
Usually behind inability to learn stands some negative experience building the
restrictive barrier in mind and for such cases voluntary desire to convert won’t
help, however not all the conversion types need agreement of the person.
Conversion to hierarchy.
In pure hierarchy, such as criminal gang, the violence tampers
both active and passive channel. The bandit is easily groveling before the power
(waiting violence on passive) and easily enjoying his power (violence on exit).
For conversion of any human to this moral matrix one should be constantly beaten
and insulted, and then shown how to beat and insult others. After living couple
of years in such environment, practically any person will plunge into the
universe of fear, aggression, and sadistic pleasure of victory over humiliated
Expecting the violence on passive entry is making these people sensitive for
strong figures - for example, worshiping Stalin.
In the Russian army all new
recruits go through beatings and insults of "daddies" – those who served over
the year. And then, after becoming the “dady”, neophyte learns how to beat
younger recruits, so habit of violence is attached to his active behaviour. Russians say that after the army boy
becomes a real man, which is technically true considering definition of “real
man” as a scuffle.
Conversion straight man to
Sometimes the shock reaction, when reading the text below,
results in uncontrolled laughter. This is a typical psychopathic defense
reaction of matrix on attacking the foundations of the moral core installed in
the reader's head.
If you read the book you know that all the words have emotional
significance, which is different in different matrices. For the success of the
experiment we have to neutralize any negativity toward gay characters, in the
The words of hate have become words of love, in the truest sense.
Especially it applies to the words "fagot" or "dirty fag" and so on. Also, the
negative word "shit" should be moved to another area of the emotional database
as well as monogamous sense abomination to the "shit" supports a ban on gay sex.
Emotional settings in your mind are the product of your matrix
but you have an ability to change them. Even if a lot will seem creepy - the
feeling of dismay comes out of your emotional settings.
For a start you should not try to present a man
as a sex object - this is a common mistake with monogamous activists. Passive
channel does not contain the porn pictures, as does the active, and do not try
call them, especially for the channel to be developed. Also, it is virtually
impossible to convert on low libido. If you do not have the mood now - all will
be useless. The following method is based on the overlap of sex positivity and
reprogramming phobia barriers by transferring negative symbols "fagot" and other
into positive territory. Without good sexual excitation it will fail.
According to my observations drinking
alcohol only helps the active channel, even for women and gay men. But because
the conversion should start on passive it’s better to avoid drinking. Smoking
pot - yes, it raises sensitivity and as a consequence it helps realize the
pleasure. Basically, all the exercise is directed and developed just to realize
the pleasure, and remove the barriers disrupting the pleasure.
The simplest thing to start - it’s a
masturbation, presenting yourself as a woman. It is just necessary to afford,
giving free rein to your imagination. At this point a lot of matrix resistance
can be met. First of all it will look idiotic to you, and thoughts about
“normality” might populate your mind making your intention look ridiculous and
these instructions seem stupid. If there is an ability to wear lingerie, do it -
it is important to bring yourself to orgasmic state, making the women's
movement. Mechanical excitation of penis is enough to reward your new reflexes,
and gradually consolidate the gains achieved.
After a few repetitions and binding,
you'll find that exciting "in a woman's way", getting easier, then it's time to
move on to the next stage - a visual representation of the penis entering into
you. Closer to orgasm please tell
yourself: “I am fagot".
Accepting the word as a positive,
you're overwriting the old negative install. Once this happens, the phrase "I am
fagot”, “I’m so gay” or similar expressions will excite you sexually, and pretty
strong, since the old ban removed and phobia escaped. This is a very important
Then throw out all the hateful
phrases and symbols of sexual "filth", creatively embedding them into your own
sex stream of consciousness: like "he finished in my ass", and similar
expressions. Mastering a new direction, your body has to respond very
The most important thing in this experiment - consent to it. Moreover, in the
debate, one of my opponents said, "Who agreed to such things - is already gay"
and it's true. Which proves purely ideological nature of homosexuality - consent
"to such thing" already installs the desired resolution and removes the taboo.
Basically there are millions ways to
learn how to become gay and there is no way how to forget it.